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Never Alone

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I will always remember that day.  I can still taste the salty ocean air.  I will go to the beginning…
It is early morning, the brilliant gold-red sunrise reflecting off the water on the western side of “my” peninsula.  I love the absolute aloneness… at least I tell myself I do.
I go down to the shore, wanting to loose myself, yet yearning to know – who am I?  
The foamy green tide ripples over my bare feet as I feel the breeze across my face.
All is silent now.
Suddenly, serenity is broken as the waters display their mighty force.   
They crash against a rock and the rock splits in half, sending the once mighty cliff careening into the sea.  The waters close over it, hiding the stone in their dark depths.
I am afraid.
Still, this endless display of power beckons “come”.
I am drawn to this enchanted place.
It is silent again.
In the distance a giant – I can’t see what - shows its might.  
It leaps into the air, throwing itself down again on its helpless prey.
The scene chills me to the bone.
I look at the ocean’s awesomeness, not one tenth the power of my Creator, yet more astounding than I can fathom.
I look at myself, fifteen – I once thought myself so grown up, but now, I seem like a small child.
In a playful ponytail, a dress too light for this freezing cold, and in my bare feet…no, my sandals are on the shore, I remember…
I laugh out loud.  This place humbles me so much.
I once thought I was mature, even beautiful…what made me think that?
I pick up a shell and throw it with all my might, angry at my own folly.
The shell lands, mockingly, two feet in front of me.
The water seems to laugh, saying how strong I must be.
I climb on a high rock and I cry, sorry for myself.
I throw a private pity party as the sun rises gloriously in all shades of brilliancy.
I am too depressed to notice.



The next thing I know a seagull is angrily screeching at me.  I appear to be near his nest and he wishes me to move.
As I sigh I notice the sun is above my head.  I must have slept.
The tide is gentle now.  The beach is littered with people eating lunch, playing with a ball, tanning in the sun.   
The smells tantalize my tongue as I remember how hungry I am.  
Two girls, best friends, gather seashells and whisper secrets.
I envy their camaraderie.
“Where are my friends?” I ask no one in particular.
I don’t want to be near these invaders.
I slip on my sandals, now full of burning sand and dry seaweed.  
I walk away, wishing only to be alone.
“You are never alone.”
What!?  Who is this who can answer my thoughts?  I run away over the rocky shore to the tip of the peninsula.
“The only One who can know your thoughts” comes the answer.
“Leave me alone!” I shout, not knowing Who I am talking to.
“You are never alone” repeats the Omniscient.
I, or we, are now well away from any signs of humanity.
I look out to the boundless sea.
A dolphin dances playfully in the water, stealing my thoughts from me.  
I can’t help laughing.
“Isn’t it lovely” the voice says again.
“Beautiful” comes my reply in a whisper, forgetting I wanted to be left alone.
“I made it for you, you know.”
Like thunder, the thought hits me.  I know now Who I am speaking to.  I am speechless.
“But, Lord, I didn’t…I didn’t know it was You.  I am so sorry.”  I stammer, sounding pathetic.
“I love you, my child.”
“But, Jesus, I just…what did you say?”
“I love you” He repeats.  “You are my creation.  You are beautiful.  You are never, ever alone.”
“I love You too, Lord, but I..I don’t deserve You.”
“You finally understand,” He answers.
I look to the crystal waters – so deep, so endless, so beautiful.
“I love you” my Savior whispers in the wind.
“But…how?  I can’t understand You, Lord.”
“I love you no matter what.  Look at the ocean.  Can you see the end of it?”
“Of course not” I reply instantly.
“It’s smaller than a drop of water compared to My love for you.”
I try to fathom this, looking awestruck at the wide, blue water.
“I am in love with You, Jesus” I whisper.
“I am in love with the God of the universe.”
“You finally understand” He replies.



I spend the rest of the day running on the sandy beach, singing, laughing, and talking to my true love as the wind blows my dress and my hair.
It is dark sooner than I thought.
Again the waters chill.
Again I am frightened.
But as I walk, sandals in hand, to safety and refuge from the freezing cold, glancing at the last glimmer of sunset shining and disappearing on the waters on the eastern coast, I smile.
For in the quiet stillness, I hear the echo of eternity.
“You are never alone.”
This is a journalism assignment that turned into a conversation with God...

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